Gruntings

I have been moaning about work - a lot.

Last night, I was reminded that if one believes and has enough faith to ask, one will receive.

That has got me worried.

I do believe I am not cut out for all these responsibilities.

I do believe that someone else can do a better job.

I do believe that I am a lousy administrator.

I do believe my forte is in class.

And it has affected my health.

So if I believe the above, and have been moaning and groaning, will my wish be granted?

It has before, so maybe it will again.

I don't know how much more I can take.

It's taking a toll on me, paddling against the tide.

However, I know and have been reminded, that from people with much, much is expected.

Yet, I feel I have failed.

And in this failure, I will (and have) disappoint the ones closest and dearest to me.

For this, I apologise.